new year, new me!
January 05, 2008
Ah, what is this? My first official entry for 2008!
It’s an election year. I am frightened. The American government has become a joke…much worse than even the Regan years. We’re stuck in a war we can’t win…because, you know, trying to “win” a war is like trying to “win” an earthquake. Completely ridiculous. I don’t care for any of the candidates. Not a single, solitary one.
I am trying very hard to stay politically aware…and still enjoy life. It’s a difficult process and sometimes leads to moments of verbal diarrhea on my part during social functions, but I’m managing okay.
New Year’s Eve was fantastic. The Boyfriend and I went grocery shopping after he got off work, then we went back to his apartment and he cooked a fabulous steak dinner for the both of us. We tried watching a movie…but about halfway through, we lost track of what was going on because we were a bit preoccupied…with each other.
I’ve got one more day of sweet freedom left, and then it’s back to crazy hours at THE JOB. Which, when I sit and think about it, isn’t so bad. Because, you see, I have a slight spending problem. Working long hours prevents me from going out and spending money in a mindless fashion.
Thinking in terms of “we”, meaning myself and The Boyfriend, I have taken it upon myself to put more effort into cleaning house, taking care of myself properly, AND paying off outstanding bills. I’ve been doubling up on car payments, paying a little extra here and there. Once that is taken care of, I will be left with an additional $400 a month to go toward schooling and whatnot.
To cut down on household expenses, I’ve been clipping coupons and making an effort to only grocery shop once every two weeks. I’ve been making lists…doing laundry regularly…and even pushing myself to write in those rare moments I get all to myself.
I’ve gone back to jogging in the freezing January cold, which is nothing if not bracing.
I’ve been keeping in steady touch with family members I don’t get to see that often. This even includes writing a letter to one of my big sisters…the nice one…who lives near DC and trying to re-establish some sort of relationship with her. I mean, I haven’t seen her since I was 12, after all.
I still find myself thinking of D occasionally, but the moments are fleeting. I will never put myself in that position ever again…with anyone. But I can also reason that if I had not been through all that abuse, I would not be able to truly appreciate my very healthy and functional (and let’s not forget mutually respectful) connection with The Boyfriend. Thinking like this prevents me from being bitter over something that seemed only a few short months ago like such a huge waste of time…but I have come to see it as a very thorough learning experience.
The only thing I have not yet managed to do is mail belated gifts. I hate the post office during the holidays. Hate hate HATE it! All those damnable lines. I firmly believe that lines were invented to drive unconventional souls (such as myself) utterly insane.
And one final thing, before I completely forget…I’ve got a new piece up at the awesome online magazine All Things Girl…just click on the “writings” section. The January/February issue features Deborah Harry on the cover. Check it out!
